waiting, trusting, hoping

Yesterday was my first oncology appointment. I am waiting once again for test results. This time two genetic tests (Oncotype DX & BRAC1 & BRAC2). Both predict in different ways what the likelihood is of this cancer to reoccur. From these results the next steps of treatment will be formed. A possibility I don't need chemotherapy. I am cautiously optimistic. The possibility of more surgery lurks on the horizon. Hmmm...what's the best case scenario?

Lord, you already know the results of these tests. Prepare me and my family for the next steps. Help us to trust You as we wait - again.

You say in Psalm 32:8, "I will guide you along the best pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you."

We seek Your wisdom as we make decisions with the medical staff to reduce the risk of cancer reoccurring anywhere else in my body.

James 1:5-6 says, If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives it generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.

Help me and my family Lord, to wait expectantly in hopeful trust, knowing and believing you will guide me on the best pathway for my life. I will wait upon You. I will trust in You. I will hope in You, Lord Jesus.

dying to self

loss of feminine form
to be shaped into the image of Christ

loss of health
to share in Christ's suffering

loss of independence
that grace may extend more & more

loss of energy
to gain rest

loss of self-sufficiency
to learn dependence upon God

loss of control
to trust Jesus more deeply

loss of strength
to understand weakness

loss of comfort
so the life of Jesus may be visible
in ordinary flesh

loss of plans
so my faith may be strengthened

loss of happiness
to produce joy and generosity

loss of my will
to live for His

dying to self
to know Christ more intimately